21st Throw - [ voice ]

It's weird, realizing something you're used to is gone.

[And that could be taken wrong, so she's quick to add on:]

Not Cato. He's still here. And, I mean, so are the dreams. But they're not as bad. For either of us.

I realized it this morning.

I mean, it's not a big deal, and it's a good thing, but it's still weird. I'm so used to it now -- waking up in the middle of the night, going for a run, going into the woods. Or waking up because Cato's getting up for a walk.

I've gotten to the point where if he wakes me up? I can just roll over and go back to sleep. He does the same thing if I wake him up.

It's just... weird. Realizing we both slept the whole night last night.

[Portia had warned her before she went into the Games that if she came out, it'd be bad. That she'd be there, even if she had to kill Cato. That she could always come over if things were bad. Clove hadn't understood at the time, but she did now. And, sure enough, like Portia had promised, the effects got manageable after time. Especially with someone close by to make it better. She hadn't thought it would.]

It's getting better. I kind of figured it never would, actually.