[Like the laugh it just comes. It's easy and safe and much better for him to react than to let himself break like he started to. So he reels on her, lets himself burn and spit with anger that wasn't in him for days but now it's back in full force.]
Fuck you! Don't tell me to shut up when I just - [and he chokes. Why can't he say it? That he can't make things separate in his mind. When he isn't sure which one is the truth and which is the lie? Because he knows which one he wants.
[It's easier to react. Easier to live in this moment. Not think about anything else.
So she lashes out. She swings a slap for his face. She doesn't want to hurt him. To really do damage. But she wants to do something. She wants to cut and claw. Anything. She wants to see blood. But she can't.
She's gotten too weak in this place. Too attached. Too many talks with Twelve.]
[It connects because it's not what he's expecting.
And there's a silence where he doesn't move or even breath as she speaks.
He, for a moment, is caught between pushing himself to do it, and being unable to stop. But his hands wrap around her small wrists easily and he twists, throws his weight into it so he has her hands on the counter and his body over hers. He knows, in an instant, all the ways she can attack from here. And he fucking welcomes it; the little outburst just now helps...
Being domestic would make him sick.]
Don't.
[It's quiet, but solid. His grip tightens and heat crawls up his spine. It's comforting; this anger. He doesn't know why he tried letting it go.]
[Go limp. Go down. Move forward. Side step. Elbow to the ribs. If she didn't want to use a knife. She can feel it, heavy at her side. She killed Twelve with it. She could kill him, too. Blood all over her. That's what she knows. Blood and a body at her feet.
Back in a week. And then what?
It's an excellent plan, and her eyes shine with it. With the lust for blood. Because that would be so much easier.
But she stays tense. She can't do it. She can't attack. She can't kill. Not him.
And the shine takes on a different tone. Tears, rather than murder. Sorrow more than rage. Yet a deep anger because she can do nothing with that pain.]
I hate you.
[Yet, even as she says it, her voice nearly breaks. She wants to cry; she wants to hit him. Anything to make this stop.]
[He thinks about breaking her wrists. About breaking her neck.
That'd be easier than doing this. Playing house and pretending that love is something they do. It's so stupid, especially in hindsight. Why did he think they could do this? Because there's nothing else here?]
I don't care.
[And it's the truth. He could give less than two shits if she hates him. He hates mostly everything on a good day. Maybe the months of peace and learning to accept this is his future had rubbed off on him, because he realizes that he's contemplating killing her. Killing her of all people. And he lets go.
Cato backs away and doesn't stop till he's out the door and going to the lake. Moving by route.]
[Clove watches him go. When he releases her, she only slides down against the counter, going to her knees. The words hurt, and that stings more than anything else. There are tears now. She's actually crying, now that he's not there to see her. Is this what she's become? Has she let herself get so weak?
She grabs the counter and pulls herself up. The pots and pans on the stove are spared. The glass bowl the noodles might have been served in? Isn't. She throws it, the thick glass barely breaking, even when it hits the wall. Not far enough to go to pick up enough speed. So she sees the glasses set out for drinks with dinner.
Those break much more easily.
A plate. Then two.
She steps over the shards, ignoring them. She wants to run. But he'll go to the camp. That can't be her haven here. But he might come back. She doesn't want to be here when he does.]
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[Like the laugh it just comes. It's easy and safe and much better for him to react than to let himself break like he started to. So he reels on her, lets himself burn and spit with anger that wasn't in him for days but now it's back in full force.]
Fuck you! Don't tell me to shut up when I just - [and he chokes. Why can't he say it? That he can't make things separate in his mind. When he isn't sure which one is the truth and which is the lie? Because he knows which one he wants.
But he's not sure.]
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So she lashes out. She swings a slap for his face. She doesn't want to hurt him. To really do damage. But she wants to do something. She wants to cut and claw. Anything. She wants to see blood. But she can't.
She's gotten too weak in this place. Too attached. Too many talks with Twelve.]
Don't you dare speak to me like that.
[It's a growl, her eyes narrowed.]
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And there's a silence where he doesn't move or even breath as she speaks.
He, for a moment, is caught between pushing himself to do it, and being unable to stop. But his hands wrap around her small wrists easily and he twists, throws his weight into it so he has her hands on the counter and his body over hers. He knows, in an instant, all the ways she can attack from here. And he fucking welcomes it; the little outburst just now helps...
Being domestic would make him sick.]
Don't.
[It's quiet, but solid. His grip tightens and heat crawls up his spine. It's comforting; this anger. He doesn't know why he tried letting it go.]
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Back in a week. And then what?
It's an excellent plan, and her eyes shine with it. With the lust for blood. Because that would be so much easier.
But she stays tense. She can't do it. She can't attack. She can't kill. Not him.
And the shine takes on a different tone. Tears, rather than murder. Sorrow more than rage. Yet a deep anger because she can do nothing with that pain.]
I hate you.
[Yet, even as she says it, her voice nearly breaks. She wants to cry; she wants to hit him. Anything to make this stop.]
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That'd be easier than doing this. Playing house and pretending that love is something they do. It's so stupid, especially in hindsight. Why did he think they could do this? Because there's nothing else here?]
I don't care.
[And it's the truth. He could give less than two shits if she hates him. He hates mostly everything on a good day. Maybe the months of peace and learning to accept this is his future had rubbed off on him, because he realizes that he's contemplating killing her. Killing her of all people. And he lets go.
Cato backs away and doesn't stop till he's out the door and going to the lake. Moving by route.]
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She grabs the counter and pulls herself up. The pots and pans on the stove are spared. The glass bowl the noodles might have been served in? Isn't. She throws it, the thick glass barely breaking, even when it hits the wall. Not far enough to go to pick up enough speed. So she sees the glasses set out for drinks with dinner.
Those break much more easily.
A plate. Then two.
She steps over the shards, ignoring them. She wants to run. But he'll go to the camp. That can't be her haven here. But he might come back. She doesn't want to be here when he does.]