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shenevermisses) wrote2013-07-14 12:14 pm
shenevermisses) wrote2013-07-14 12:14 pm
18th Throw - [ voice ]
I think the weirdest part about being here -- the part I'm never really going to get used to -- is having time.
[There's no Career act today, so Clove doesn't bother with the video. She doesn't want to have to smile when she feels... weird.
Not good, not bad. Just weird.
It's what happens, she's pretty sure, when she thinks too much.]
I didn't get that where I was from. In the Academy, the days were scheduled. Even when we didn't have classes -- like when we'd sometimes go home for the weekend -- I sort of just... kept that schedule. I didn't know what else to do. I even still sort of do.
But... here... we've got time.
Maybe a little, maybe a lot. But it's time.
[She's rambling, and she knows it, but the thought's been weighing on her for awhile. It's something that keeps getting stirred up every time she thinks it's gone.]
So. Let's say there's something you wanted to do where you came from. You know you can't go back; you'll never get to do it there.
Would you... do it here? Because you can and because you have the time to do it.
[There's no Career act today, so Clove doesn't bother with the video. She doesn't want to have to smile when she feels... weird.
Not good, not bad. Just weird.
It's what happens, she's pretty sure, when she thinks too much.]
I didn't get that where I was from. In the Academy, the days were scheduled. Even when we didn't have classes -- like when we'd sometimes go home for the weekend -- I sort of just... kept that schedule. I didn't know what else to do. I even still sort of do.
But... here... we've got time.
Maybe a little, maybe a lot. But it's time.
[She's rambling, and she knows it, but the thought's been weighing on her for awhile. It's something that keeps getting stirred up every time she thinks it's gone.]
So. Let's say there's something you wanted to do where you came from. You know you can't go back; you'll never get to do it there.
Would you... do it here? Because you can and because you have the time to do it.
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[She's been talking herself into and out of the situation for about a week. And she still can't make up her mind.]
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[There can be some things that people want, but can do without. Some other things, not so much.]
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[Even if she never does find her brother, she would be satisfied just having that goal. It's really all she has.]
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