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shenevermisses) wrote2013-07-14 12:14 pm
shenevermisses) wrote2013-07-14 12:14 pm
18th Throw - [ voice ]
I think the weirdest part about being here -- the part I'm never really going to get used to -- is having time.
[There's no Career act today, so Clove doesn't bother with the video. She doesn't want to have to smile when she feels... weird.
Not good, not bad. Just weird.
It's what happens, she's pretty sure, when she thinks too much.]
I didn't get that where I was from. In the Academy, the days were scheduled. Even when we didn't have classes -- like when we'd sometimes go home for the weekend -- I sort of just... kept that schedule. I didn't know what else to do. I even still sort of do.
But... here... we've got time.
Maybe a little, maybe a lot. But it's time.
[She's rambling, and she knows it, but the thought's been weighing on her for awhile. It's something that keeps getting stirred up every time she thinks it's gone.]
So. Let's say there's something you wanted to do where you came from. You know you can't go back; you'll never get to do it there.
Would you... do it here? Because you can and because you have the time to do it.
[There's no Career act today, so Clove doesn't bother with the video. She doesn't want to have to smile when she feels... weird.
Not good, not bad. Just weird.
It's what happens, she's pretty sure, when she thinks too much.]
I didn't get that where I was from. In the Academy, the days were scheduled. Even when we didn't have classes -- like when we'd sometimes go home for the weekend -- I sort of just... kept that schedule. I didn't know what else to do. I even still sort of do.
But... here... we've got time.
Maybe a little, maybe a lot. But it's time.
[She's rambling, and she knows it, but the thought's been weighing on her for awhile. It's something that keeps getting stirred up every time she thinks it's gone.]
So. Let's say there's something you wanted to do where you came from. You know you can't go back; you'll never get to do it there.
Would you... do it here? Because you can and because you have the time to do it.
[voice]
It could ruin my life. What...ever sort of a life I've got here. I could screw it all up really easily.
[Which is why she's afraid. Why she's looking for some sort of mentor.
If she could be back in District Two, she'd go to Portia or Aridane. She'd have older women she trusted to ask opinions of, to discuss her options. But here and now, it was her. And she didn't trust herself enough. Not on matters that weren't pure survival.]
But... I might regret not doing it, too. If the chance went away.
[voice]
And, if she let them, could easily destroy the rest of her life.
It wasn't something, she realized, that she wanted for Clove.]
What is it?
[voice]
I... don't trust this thing. Talking about it over this.
[voice]
Could magic be easy to hack, too?]
Okay. Where?
[voice]
[Today isn't about a treaty or about wariness. This... If anything, this is a friendly conversation. So neutral ground doesn't matter.]
[voice]
Besides, what's the worse that could happen? Clove kill her in her own home? Funny how that was an idea Katniss wasn't really all that opposed to. But she doubts Clove would. Not after how she acted at the party.
As if they were once again friends.]
Come over.